black hole day.

well, the day was fine. sunny. job training went well. walked by the lake with mom. lucy laid and egg. watched a good movie (faubourg36). just black hole me, sucked in on myself, thinner and thinner

i wonder, if/how to sustain it. smile on, very good. chin up, well done then. but after lunch i just climb into bed and die a little more. write a card to nana, mom offers me chocolate and i accept, it does not taste good, i am hungry, but sick to my stomach, i want to do anything that means something, but i don't know what i mean or if i am anything at all, smoke signals to no one because i don't want to bother you, say it out loud, sound like a teenager, help me no one, i'm dying